Ha. Yeah, that's the thing. I've never had anything like this--a TV show and characters like this--that I've cared about this much, and it still strikes me as odd sometimes. It really doesn't feel rational at all, how much I care about it. Things have gotten better the more I've taken myself away from the comms/forums, and I've already decided that if I make it through this rough patch (which I think I will, hopefully, but it's just tough, and honestly it depends on what goes down between now and the finale, too), then I'm going to watch S5 spoiler-free and completely away from comms/forums. Just me, my brain, and my f-list. I'm learning that's the better way to go.