swatkat

I'll admit that I've done my fair share of complaining lately about the show (instant patient insights, I kind of miss the Clinic, it took me a while to adjust to the ensemble-y feel, I'm not digging the lack of balance sometimes), but there's a lot even about those aspects that's directly connected to my experience with fandom. It's so hard for me to ignore the media, and the hype (even though I know it's hype and people like Ausellio are so superficial and wouldn't be able analyze anything if his life depended on it), and the crazy insane shippers who is practically everyone these days and I want to pull all their hair out and open their heads to see if they actually have brains in there, my God. *ahem* I don't know why I let it get to me, but I know it's my own fault, and I try to stay away from comms and forums. I've done all right with comms. Forums not as well. They draw me in because I feel out of the loop and am afraid I'm going to...be forgotten, I guess. It's silly. But anyway, it's really hurt how I've been watching the show, and I've had to try a lot harder to look at it objectively lately, when that used to come so easily. I always hear little shipper voices in my head, like I know what people will say and how much it'll bother me. It's so stupid. Hopefully I'll learn to adopt an attitude like yours with some time.