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[swatkat]

There was a time when I used to think Buffy/Giles was badbadWRONG, and that I would never, ever *dream* of reading that pairing. Now is not that time.

*facepalm*

Also, hi. I realise that I haven't updated in ages, but I'd been out of town for a week or so, visiting my grandfather, my kitties, catching up with old friends and such. It was fun, but damn it's good to be home. I missed fandom *so much*. *g*



My grandfather lives in a small town (or shall we say a medium-sized town?); a place where I originally hail from. Every now and then my old friends and I get together over there, squeeing over new things and sighing over old things. These are the people who know me from school, know all about my stupid school gaffes that I would never tell anyone (well, except maybe a few close friends), and I know everything about them in turn. It's feels so *good* when we get together, like it's all like old times and we're still in school together... *sigh* Anyway, the thing about small towns is that when things change, you'll always notice - even more so when you don't actually live there anymore. And this time, when we hung around, going to all the old places and sighing nostalgically about past events, I really noticed how *much* things have changed. All the 'older' people (i.e people in their twenties; stop laughing) we took for granted have moved away, either to another place, or too caught up in their lives to sit in a coffee house and chat pointlessly for hours. And sitting in our places, doing the same things that *we* used to do, were kids I couldn't recognise (or could, vaguely, like "He's X's BROTHER? I don't believe it!). These kids looked so young. Looking at them made me feel almost... old.

Does this make any sense? Don't suppose so. *g*

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[donnaimmaculata.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean. My old friends and I try to get together at least once a year (usually at Christmas), and it's just like the old times. We are baffled, each year anew, about how easily we fall into the old patterns, the old banter etc. It's funny, even though I see my school friends only once or twice a year (as opposed to the current friends, some of whom I see once or twice a week), we still feel very comfortable with each other. It's probably because we stuck together through the most embarrassing times of our lives (puberty, ew!), and know each other well enough to not feel obliged to pretend we are responsible and sophisticated adults now *g*

And, hey, I know everything about "He's X's BROTHER? I don't believe it!). These kids looked so young! My own brother is one of those kids looking at whom makes me feel old. All of a sudden, he was grown up. It's scary.

[swatkat24.livejournal.com]

It's probably because we stuck together through the most embarrassing times of our lives (puberty, ew!), and know each other well enough to not feel obliged to pretend we are responsible and sophisticated adults now *g*

Yes, that's probably it. Puberty was... *shudder* I enjoyed it while it lasted, despite all the crap, but I'm very, very glad it's over.

My own brother is one of those kids looking at whom makes me feel old. All of a sudden, he was grown up. It's scary.

I get that feeling every now and then when I look at my sister. Scary indeed. *g*

Swatkat

[jedi-penguin.livejournal.com]

Hi! I just noticed that you friended me, which is great! I love getting new friends! But I wonder if you know that my primary fandom is Buffy/Giles? (I wrote the ship_manifesto for that pairing, for instance.) If you're cool with that, I'm delighted; perhaps I might even convert you! *grin* (And it's cool if I can't; I have several non B/Gers on my flist, but I'm not sure if any of them would characterize it as "badbadWRONG" or just not their cup of tea.) If you friended me by mistake and want to defriend, that's cool too. I won't be offended at all.

*drive-by hug*

p.s. You asked on an earlier post about Remus/Hermione at ship_manifesto. That was supposed to be me too, but I just didn't feel deeply immersed enough in that fandom to do it justice and I bailed. As far as I know, it's still open.

Hey

[swatkat24.livejournal.com]

Nice to meet you.

Does the above come across saying that I dislike the pairing? *cringe* I actually meant to say that I was surprised by how *much* I liked the pairing, and how I wasn't squicked by it at all, which I thought I would be (because there really was a point when I thought it was badbadWRONG - that was before I actually started reading in this fandom, though). The facepalm came because it just shows how much I've changed from my early fandom days (in HP), when I wouldn't read anything but a couple of het pairings, and cross-generation was "OMG ewwwww!", to this pairing-happy, "What is this age difference you speak of?" person that I've currently become. I have this weirdly sarcastic manner of expressing myself - I really hope I didn't come across as dissing B/G, and I apologise if I do.

I friended you *after* reading your ship_manifesto essay, actually. I enjoyed reading a couple of fics in the pairing, then went over to check the essay over there. I thought it was brilliantly written, even more so because your love for the characters and the pairing came out. Then I checked out your LJ, and found it very interesting reading - so I friended you, because I thought I'd like to get to know you better. *g*

You asked on an earlier post about Remus/Hermione at ship_manifesto. That was supposed to be me too, but I just didn't feel deeply immersed enough in that fandom to do it justice and I bailed. As far as I know, it's still open.

Oh, you like Remus/Hermione too? That's absolutely brilliant. You know, I'm actually surprised by how many people confess to liking this pairing, because I thought it was really obscure and liked by, like, two people in the fandom. *g*

[p.s - you mentioned getting a lot of flak for shipping 'incest'. why don't you send this people over to the HP fandom, where people actually ship Fred/George, and so on? ;)]

Swatkat

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[jedi-penguin.livejournal.com]

I *thought* you were trying to express a change of heart but wasn't sure. I know I've friended people before that I later regretted, so I just wanted to let you know that my feelings wouldn't be hurt if that was the case here. You seemed interesting enough that I was going to friend you, but I didn't want you to think that it was in response to your friending if you wound up deciding I was a yucky freak.

Whew! LJ politics is exhausting, isn't it? *grin*

And hurray about my essay! I poured my soul into that bugger, so I'm delighted to hear that you liked it. And yes, I love Remus/Hermione, I just think that I'm not the best person to write it. I signed up for it when there were virtually no HP people at ship_manifesto and I worried that no one would write it if I didn't. Then an influx of HP people with shiny brains discovered the community and I figured that one of them could do a better job than me.

[p.s - you mentioned getting a lot of flak for shipping 'incest'. why don't you send this people over to the HP fandom, where people actually ship Fred/George, and so on? ;)]

It's astonishing how different HP and Buffy are. Those fans are often on other planets, each with their own set of intolerant quirks and charming good points.

Re: Hey

[swatkat24.livejournal.com]

I *thought* you were trying to express a change of heart but wasn't sure.

Yes, like I said, I have an odd way of expressing myself. Le sigh. But I'm glad we're clear anyway.

You seemed interesting enough that I was going to friend you, but I didn't want you to think that it was in response to your friending if you wound up deciding I was a yucky freak.

After being on the HP fandom for a while, I can't think of *anyone* as an yucky freak because of their reading preferences. Because there are people who like Umbridge/Peeves (okay, I made that one up - but I'm close, aren't I? *g*). These are also the sanest, most intelligent people I've ever come across, lol!

Whew! LJ politics is exhausting, isn't it? *grin*

Yes! I was very shy about friending people - what if they mind? I've learnt only recently that it doesn't matter, and I'm still very cautious about it.

Then an influx of HP people with shiny brains discovered the community and I figured that one of them could do a better job than me.

I do hope someone will sign up for it. That pairing needs more love. *g*

It's astonishing how different HP and Buffy are. Those fans are often on other planets, each with their own set of intolerant quirks and charming good points.

I say that everytime I step into a new fandom. All my three fandoms are *so* different from each other - I love them anyway.

Swatkat